Observations of the Zelator Grade


This piece is about my own observations of the Zelator Grade. The Zelator’s statement in Libber 185 reads: He (she) may at any moment withdraw from his (her) association with the A .’.A.’. simply notifying the Practicus who introduced him (her). Yet let him (her) remember that being entered thus far on the Path, he (she) cannot escape it….

The first big step

You could say that the grade of the Zelator is the first big step into the Order of the A .’.A.’., the student enters into the second order. This is where the real work begins. Everything that the Zelator has learned in the other grades are the basics that are getting deepen in this second state. The work you need to do as a Zelator is very clear and to the point for example Pranayama and Asana but also recovering past live memories. Liber Thisharb for example, even though it is an instruction for a higher grade, is something a Zelator can get inspiration from to find a way to uncover past live memories. Of course there are also other methods a Zelator can use to her/his own advantage.

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The road of past memories

Past live memories are indeed interesting to observe. It can give the Zelator a very clear idea about her/his own hiccups. One of the things I found out for myself was that teaching/guiding others on the path became important. What I discovered during a ritual to uncover past live memories was that, I made a promise to teach/guide others on the path but in that live I never got the chance to for fill that important task. It came back to me in this life again and again. At first, I hesitated by the idea to go back into past live memories to get a better understanding about myself and why I love teaching/guiding others so much, because you never know what can of worms you open, but when I did a ritual to uncover past live memories it became clear why I love to teach/guide others so much. It left me in some kind of ‘shock’ for days and it took me many years to find the right path and the right way to accomplish this task. From this day on it is something that means a lot to me. I am glad I opened that ‘can of worms‘ so to speak even though it was very scary.

For me this grade is about the Magickal and Spiritual foundation to be able to travel to Tiphareth and do my Abramelin work and accomplish the knowledge and conversation of the HGA.

On the tree of life

The Zelator is attributed to Yesod. The sphere of the Moon. Moon energy can be very tricky, it is sexual, deceiving but also reflective and can be delusional at times.

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The tree of life

What I do love about this Grade is the fact the two paths that intersect with this sphere are 31 and 30, Shin and Resh both lead up to Hod, the next step so to speak, in other words the hidden divine fire breath. Even though this isn’t an easy one, coming from Malkuth, in my view a very heavy earth energy, working is Yesod literally gave me a breath of fresh air. This grade gives me so much more inspiration, balance, I feel the connection with the order and the great white brotherhood so much stronger. It is like I am seeing things from a new and fresh perspective.

I also read in Magick book 4 and I quote: The spirits of the Gods, which broods upon the Formless Void in the Beginning, being by shape a triple tongue of flame, and by meaning a tooth, wich is the only part of the secret and solid foundation of Man that is manifested normally. Teeth serve him to fight, to crush, to cut, to rend….Teeth are displayed when our Secret Self, our subconscious Ego, whose Magical image is our individually expressed in mental and bodily form- our HGA- comes forth and declares our True Will to our fellows, whether to snarl or to sneer, to smile or to laugh. It gave me literally gave me goose pimples. I read this part of the book many, many moons ago but now it gave me a wake-up-moment. Working with Shin, the tooth, to unveil myself and get rid of all the Karma or at least as much as possible to complete the work is no idle idea. It means to develop a form of rigor to be able to yield the ‘dagger’ and later on the sword.



The path Zelator goes from Yeshod to Hod and then Netzach and finally Tiphareth and the Zelator can use the sacred fire breath to help her/him to complete the tasks of the second order. The danger however of this grade, at least in my opinion, can be that a Zelator becomes moon sick and goes from Yesod to Tipareth through the path of Samekh and declares her/himself an Adeptus Minor. Yesod is the lesser part of Binah, the great sea and even though a Zelator can hear the call of the Sea, it is still better to go through all the steps and then unite yourself with your HGA.


Magick in Action; The December working


This article is about Magick, specifically Magick in action. In June 2016 I finished my degree in teaching. It took two years of my life but I made it. At that time around June 2016,  my condition was very poor, my body out of shape and my energy level very low. My first goal was to get back into shape again. So that was what I did and still doing. And it works wonders, I have not been ill in more then a year and it also payed off in my magickal work. I might write something about that in the near future, as I will not go into dept about that process for now. In the beginning of december 2017 I noticed I was very unhappy with my job, not the content of my job but the team I was working in. It gave a lot of stress and I didn’t feel very welcome there. So, I started an experiment.

The experiment

For my experiment I used an outline that I learned at the BOTA many years ago, but I tweaked it to my liking and need. The most important thing for me was to get more time for my Magickal work. The deeper one gets into the A.’.A.’. the intenser the work gets. One of the most important goal’s in the A.’.A.’. is to make contact with your HGA and have a conversation with this Angel or two. With all the mundane work I was doing I knew it would take me way to much time.  So I pondered my mind on what to do.

The first thing I did was meditate on it, preformed some basic rituals like Star Ruby, ‘contacted’ my HGA and the great white brotherhood for help, for me it was important that is was really about to be able to preform the Great work and nothing else. Then I sat down to write down my goal.

The second thing I did was: I used a very associative way of writing. I took a big piece of paper and wrote down everything I could imagine. I made my goal larger then life and at least that is how it felt for me at the time. My goal (in summary) was to find a new job, less hours, a raise, close to home, something more experimental, for an extend period of time or even a permanent contract within the company I was already working or an other company that I had worked before.

The third thing I did was to fold the piece of paper and put it somewhere on my bookshelves to ‘forget’ it so to speak. It is very important once you have set it all up to not be thinking about it all the time but just observe the ‘Linga Verdi’. Pay attention to signs and tune into them.

So there you go I set it all in motion.

The result

The first result I had was that my contract at team I didn’t liked at all got extended. It was at that moment just thrown in my lap, at least that is how the Dutch expression goes. So I gave it some thought. It was in the middle of Dec not the best time to find something else, it was full time, same courses I had all ready given, so less time to prepare. And for some reason it felt OK. I knew it was the best option out of all the options I had at that moment.  So I decided to take it.

The second result and this why I write this article in the first place was very interesting. At the end of May 2018 my manger told me that contract wouldn’t get an extension. I had mixed feelings about it. I was happy that I didn’t had to stay in that team that I didn’t like and the way they are working there, on the other hand I felt a bit offended. I wasn’t good enough? I took a week to review the news and to make up my mind. At first I didn’t act but on 13th of June I took action. I wrote 3 cover letters, one open letter and two on vacancies. By the 18th of June I had 3 reactions. And 20th of June I had two interviews, one in the morning and one in the afternoon. The interview I had in the afternoon was so positive that I got hired during that interview and you might have guessed it. This job is at the same company I am working for. It is an experiment, a great team of people that are very devoted to the work. It is at least for 3 years, I am getting a raise, that means I go to an other ‘scale’ as they call it. I have to do some work for it but that is fine. It is less hours. In other words it has almost anything I wished for back in December 2017 and even more.


I only recently gave my December working some thoughts. The interesting part for me was that I had forgotten the Magick work. It came back to me last Wednesday, I had my work conditions meeting, it was a very inspiring talk. Usually they can be a bit on the boring side but we started talking about the project and all of us got even more excited. When I stepped into my car and drove back to my ‘old’ workplace I realized what just happend and what had happend was pure Magick in my view!

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Concerning Liber Yod


For all of you that struggle on the path or experience any form of resistance/aversion towards the practices, consider reading or doing Liber YOD Sub Figura DCCCXXXI. Liber YOD deals with drawing all things ‘to a point’ and the consciousness that can be scattered all around can be melted in to one.

The first method

The first method AC describes is about banishing, banish the 7 Planets, the 12 signs of the zodiac after this banish the whole tree of life. Basically you banish all that can influence you as a Magician. When you have done that just be in your circle and observe. It is almost like unplugging your own ‘Matrix’ and rebuild it again. Hitting the reset button and format the hard drive.

The second method

The second method is a from of what the Buddhists call Chöd, a method that means ‘cutting through the ego’. And it also relate to a form of ‘analytic meditation’. It helps the Magician to learn not to take everything so personal. For example if you find it hard to learn a chapter or to do any form practice. The mind takes over with thoughts like: ‘I will do it tomorrow’ or ‘I do not have the time for it’ or ‘The neighbors make to much noise’ or ‘I am to sick’. Ask yourself are these thoughts helpful?

The third method

The third method is to ‘overload’ the system first and then to withdraw completely from all these stimulations. It is learning to still the Ruach part of the mind. To learn to be more reflective, so to become less of a jumping monkey.
For the second half do pranayama, the focus is on the Ajna chakra, the idea is that the Ajna chakra is breathing. The next exercise is study your movements, the Magician can also apply walking meditations. The next method is the control of thoughts instead “I am cold” gradually transfer it to “I am aware of a sensation of cold”.


It is not a proces for just a rainy Sunday but something that you can apply in your daily practice. It helps the Magian to overcome the ‘Ruach’ part of the ‘Ego’ and to give the mind some room to overcome obstacles.

Also have a look at Liber HHH, part II AAA. These loosen the swathings of the corpse; these inbind the feet of Osiris so that the flaming God may rage through the firmament with his fantastic spear. -Liber LAPIDIS LAZULI VII:3

Shut up and play your guitar! Instead of talking about alchemy, lets practice it!


I have this CD, in my enormous CD collection, with the powerful title: ‘Shut up and play your guitar’ by Frank Zappa. He made this CD to encourage other people to just ‘shut up’ and pick up any instrument they loved and start playing. In my humble opinion this title means: ‘Do not think to much, just do the work and things will happen.’ If you want to learn to play an instrument the only thing that you need to do is practice, practice and practice. You can read al the books in the world about ‘how to play’ an instrument but if you only read about how to play or if you only think about ‘o’ I am going to play on an instrument but only keep reading and thinking about it and hardly or never practice, you never learn to play an instrument.


We tend to make alchemy complicated

Plant alchemy for example, isn’t very difficult. It is our thinking mind that makes it difficult. Our mind just loves to be occupied, especially the lower part of our mind. Sometimes referred to as Ruach. It loves to think! And al those spinning thoughts can make your mind dizzy and ‘drunk’ on thoughts. And keep you away from the actual work. We have to be smarter and try to tame our Ruach! When your ordinary mind takes over, there is less room in your mind for growth. You have to be armed and aware, controlling the lower mind is an ongoing process. As Shunryu Suzuki said: ‘Always keep your beginners mind, in the beginners mind there are many possibilities, but in the expert’s there are few (Suzuki, 1987).’

The thoughts we can have are: ‘Where to begin?’ ‘What to buy?’ ‘Or I think it will be very expensive!’ ‘Or, I have to have this perfect space first where I can build a lab.’

So, when these ‘risings’ come, stand still for a moment! Sit down with a pencil and paper and look at your thoughts again. Ask yourself: What are these thoughts? Where do they come from? Are those thoughts important? Are my thoughts helping me? Do these thoughts bring me anywhere? Write the answers down on that piece of paper and when your answers are mostly negative, stop them! Instead go into action.

A simple trick to get into action instead of only thinking

Pick up a new piece of paper and contemplate for a moment. Ask yourself the following questions:

  • What is it that you want to do or make?
  • What do you need?
  • What budget do you need?
  • What book(s) do you want to buy?
  • What lab equipment do you need?
  • Who can you contact for help?
  • Add your own questions.
  • Break it down in little parts.

And most important be patience, building a lab and starting alchemy takes time. Next is a photo of the lab build by my husband and me.

Where to begin?

Begin with the art of distillation. My first alchemy teacher told me more then eight years ago, start with distilling wine, at least 3 liters of 90% alcohol. It is a good thing that he didn’t saw my face when I was reading his e-mail otherwise he would have seen my disappointment. Because I thought I would start with making some fancy tinctures. In the beginning I didn’t enjoy it very much but at some point it changed. I started to see and feel that the alcohol I was distilling was the foundati
on of my work. The vessel, that carried or hold all other ingredients. That was one of the greatest lessons I learned on my path of practical alchemy.

It taught me to be patience. It taught me to tune in on my work on a deeper level. What happened in the lab, also got in sync with my mind and soul. Nowadays, I still distill my own alcohol out of red wine. And it brings me inspiration, joy and gives me a lot of energy. January/February is an excellent time to do it because then you have your alcohol ready, when at the end of the summer your herbs are ready, you can continue your work and stay in the flow.

So I encourage you to do the same. Start with distilling red wine, buy wine that is around 14%. Distill it at least 6 times, it gets stronger every round. Try to get it around 80 or 90%. Much higher isn’t needed if you store it. When you want to use your alcohol you only have to distill it one more time to get it to that 99% or 100%.  I know there are a lot of other ways to do the distilling much quicker but
if you give this a change you never want to use anything else ever again. Grapes are attributed to the Sun and have a lot of energy. And it gives your tinctures much more taste and what I have noticed myself is that the aura around the tinctures is larger, more vibrant.

I already spoke about that it gave me the opportunity to tune in on my work on a deeper level. When you are not familiar with this and want to experience this as well. You can do a meditation in your lab.

While in your lab, sit on a chair with your feet flat on the floor, let your hands rest on your knees, palms down. Do not sit with your back against the back of the chair. Keep your back straight. Now breathe in slowly, like if you are smelling a flower, breathe out slowly as well. You can keep your eyes open or closed. Tune in on the work you are doing and observe what happens in your mind and body. Do this for about 10 minutes. If you like you can take notes after your session.
Well I hope that this article gives you inspiration to start on the path of alchemy or even better continue on your path.